The Marriage Registry office from our hotel window:I don’t know for sure what I will be doing this time tomorrow but I do know I will be a married woman. The concept blows my mind. I’ll wake up as a Miss and go to sleep tomorrow night as a Mrs. Just like that, a day like any other, where the world continues to revolve and people continue on their path, just another day older. I wonder as I write this how many life altering milestones are going on in the world right now and I can’t help but feel a resounding joy for them all. I really hope they are all as happy as I am right now.
I think I have mentioned this before but I have never really been in this circus to be a bride. I have found it stressful and struggle to have people’s full attention on me. I’ve tried to accommodate people the best I can and yet have fallen short and coped abuse for it. I have been guilty of saying “It’s my day and I want…” stopping just short of stomping my feet. We have had more than our fair share of disasters and I have no doubt there will be small fires between now and tomorrow but that’s okay. I’m in this circus to become CJ’s wife. I can’t lie there would have been a time were I would have devolved in to tears if my hair was not perfect or worse still my photos were not amazing because that’s just my nature. I’m a perfectionist. In the last month though I have really come to redefine my understanding of success. In the past it had to be 100% or I wasn’t happy. Actually that reminds me of the first assignment I completed while living with CJ. It was an Anthropology paper. I had poured my heart in soul into this paper and when it came back I had a mark of 94%. Most people would have been really stoked with that but I went back over my paper absorbing every single red mark (there were a lot) and then just burst into tears. CJ looked at me like I had lost my mind. Deep down though I was much more willing to take the red marks as truth and the compliments as padding, as a result my paper wasn’t perfect.
I have been reading a lot of Elise’s blog lately and it has come to my attention that I may have been looking at things from the wrong perspective. Being perfect all the time doesn’t really give you much room to grow and I know for a fact that in my own life it has prevented me from even trying thing at times because I do not wish to be disappointed with the outcome. Of recent times I have come to define a success by two factors: 1. Did I accomplish my goal. It doesn’t need to be perfect or even good for that matter. I just need got there and/or 2. Did I learn something from the situation that I can use in future. So with this principle in mind if I go to sleep tomorrow with a husband. I will be a happy woman. The little stuff can be damed. I will have accomplished my main goal.
Yesterday I briefly mentioned that there would be some changes to the blog. I am sure by now you have all figured out this will have a lot to do with my new beginning. Well you would be right! I have given a lot of thought to the things I would like to accomplish in my first year that follows so here is my list:
What better to document our first year of marriage? Looking forward to channeling my creativity along the way.
In an effort to do more of the things I love I am setting my self to read 27 books this coming year. Why 27, well it’s my favorite number.
27 Worldly Sweet Treats.
I pledge to cook 27 sweet treats, each from a different country.
27 Craft Projects.
Well pretty much the same as above but I will fill you in on this one a little later.
I choose project.
Each month on the 1st I will post my list of goals I wish to tackle for that month. They will fall into 1 of 5 categories: relationships, health, routine, job and creativity. I will fill you in on the progress as I go and then at the end of the month I’ll give a recap.
I sincerely hope there is something here for everyone and I really hope you all continue to enjoy my blog.